Star-Star is the prince of my heart-heart
I'm going to be so honest when I tell you I started playing Baldur's Gate 3 in the first place, it was to romance this man. My ex and I literally saved up and split the cost 50/50 to buy a PS5 JUST to play BG3. No kidding. I jokingly call it my "Baldur's Gate 3 Machine" because I don't play much else on it (and I also got custody of it when we broke up. Sometimes bad things DO happen for a reason, lol!). In any case, I honestly wish I could play BG3 again for the first time without any expectations or knowledge of it, because it is now one of my most favorite pieces of media in the whole wide world. During the time I got this game, I was going through a lot. I had recently lost my job, I was depressed, and I felt very lonely. When I started playing BG3, all of the characters just felt like friends to me (I know, how sad!). I was also looking for a new fandom to latch on to, because I used to be a really big Harry Potter fan, but with all of J.K. Rowling's transphobic garbage that she started spewing, I knew I needed to look elsewhere. I don't think I'll ever be able to recreate the wonder and joy I felt when I started playing this game, though, because of the ennumerable possibilities in it, I still play it even to this day, with multiple tavs on my roster.
Without getting too into detail about it, I was also feeling pretty neglected and lonely in my relationship at the time, and playing BG3 made me feel...understood. Of course, it was no band-aid solution, but it did make me feel a little better when I wasn't getting the attention I desired from the person that was supposed to love me the most.
Astarion is, again, very special to me because he was the first character I ever romanced. My first playthrough, I was desperate to get his approval all the while being a do-gooder (which he always sneers at) so...I may or may not have put him into time-out every time I knew I was going to do a good deed. Mind you, this was also the playthrough that when I got dumped by him in Act 3 for not finding Araj Obladora and defending him from her, I IMMEDIATELY chucked my save and started over.
Also please look at my tav from that playthrough. This was literally the outfit she wore when she was getting dumped :(
Listen to my fangtastic Astarion Playlist!
